Home. It's something I've been chasing for a long time.
I moved around a lot growing up - if we ever shared a bottle of wine together, I could tell you some stories, like living alone in a big, empty house for four months when I was a junior in high school. What came out of the constant uprooting and upheaval was I always desperately wanted a place to go home to.
I don't want to over-dramatize this. I always had a place to live, a great bed with a fluffy duvet, incredible siblings and friends, and call waiting in high school!
What does home even mean? Is it a person? I thought it might have been but now I'm in the middle of an (amicable) divorce. But I think it could be your significant other. Your kids? Your siblings? A mortgage payment? The place your parents have lived for 30 years? I'm jealous if you have that!
On one hand, I have a kinetic soul that is constantly in motion - the part of me that worked so hard to create a job that would allow me to travel around the world, a job that didn't exist ten years ago. I love my job and the travel industry so much it hurts sometimes.
On the other hand, I am such a homebody. I LOVE being home - lounging around on the couch, watching movies, having my family and friends over, cooking, reading in my giant chairs by the fireplace.
This spring, I traveled to South Africa, Zambia, Latvia, Hong Kong, and did an incredible cruise on the Mekong River in Vietnam and Cambodia, sailing on the Aqua Mekong.
When I was about to land at JFK, I got this overwhelming feeling. I think you get extra emotional on planes. I felt so lucky to be back and almost in awe that I actually made it back. Sometimes I can't believe my trips. Just thinking about how many modes of transportation I took in my time away - hurtling through the air in a tin can, a small cruise ship, skiffs, gondolas, subways, cars, vans, buses, tuk-tuks - makes my head spin a bit.
For now, the New York skyline feels like home to me. And walking my dog and a cappuccino at Cafe Martin in Brooklyn. That's more than enough for now.